happenings

around here we are: 

discovering | we have a mouse that doesn’t eat our bread, but eats our peaches. catching the mouse. 

disinfecting the kitchen like crazy.

catching | raccoons. yep, living on a farm.

baking | camp shetek granola. the best. the house smells amazing

starting | a new adventure of helping out with an elementary "faith finders" program at our church

also starting | a new job tomorrow. nervous/excited about a new schedule

journaling | a lot. fall always gives me more inspiration to write

missing | uploading pictures whenever i want. we have an internet data limit that's good for the budget but tough on picture loving.

pondering | getting a haircut. i'm in a total hair rut. 

trying | out many new recipes/experimenting with meal planning strategies. 

attempting | to figure out how to make my blog posts exciting, even without pictures. hmm...

Life is good.

We've got a washer and dryer.
My own sarcasm makes me laugh.
I'm gaining a sister-in-law!
I got to side part of a shed with my husband...and it was fun.
Our yard is delightfully beautiful.
We can camp out on our living room floor.
We have a million extra blankets.
We are borrowing Season 3 of Arrested Development.
Internet availability is limited. (Yes, that's a plus.)
I watched a debate and wasn't bored.
I'm officially an Iowa resident with a new last name.
We have a working furnace.
We enjoy delicious meals together.
He helps me cook and we have fun doing it.
I start an exciting new job on Tuesday.
My new job sounds kind of like The Office.
The Office is on every weekday.
Good things are happening to my friends and family.
He's really, really, handsome.
I get to see him every day.

blog spill

apparently not blogging in a long time has lead to having to blog all the time.
i'm not even publishing all i type.
i guess being busy lead to me not really letting my thoughts out.
and now i'm not so busy, so here they come.
or maybe my thoughts were ones that should be kept to myself, not even this blog.
i don't know.

motivation.
i'm not finding it today.
guess when you have nothing you have to do, nothing really gets done.

it'll be nice to start that job next week.

i could be a homemaker, i think.
but only when life gets busier.
for now i just don't have enough to make me feel accomplished, i guess.
except when the husband comes home and tells me he loves me.
and the house is clean.
and there's food to eat.
and everything's taken care of.
i guess that's alright. :)

i wish i had some sort of "work from home" venture i could do.
i wish i were more artsy.
or maybe really good at cooking.
i wish i wouldn't beat myself up and realize that i'm me for a reason.
and that's an awesome thing.
i almost deleted this, because i felt lame.
but then i left it because this is just a venue for me to get thoughts out.

i'm working on my self-appreciation.
but still looking for just what it is that makes me...me.
it's a process.
and there's nothing wrong with that.
i'm growing.
and i'm determined to keep growing.

hearts and minds are echo-y places sometimes.

i love music.
i hate paying for it.
i'm not much for spending money.
it makes me feel a little guilty sometimes.

sigh.

hannah's wednesday thoughts.
it's okay to be melancholy.
at least for a little while.

Outlet

This blog is my outlet.

Sometimes I wonder why I write here.
Why do I waste my time typing to an audience I don't have?
If I had an audience, would I even want them to read?
I don't know.

But an outlet.

That's what I think this blog is.
An outlet to the thoughts that run through my mind.
All day, I think them.
Some days more than others.

That's where the outlet comes in.

My thoughts are thought.
Then, they gather.
Slowly, they come together.
At the end of the day, here's where they go.

The outlet.

They flow out little by little.
Maybe they aren't beautiful or enlightening.
Maybe they're not even complete.
But this is where they end up, satisfied to have reached the end.

And now, I can let them be.

September

Maybe it's October now, but in my mind it's still September. My time schedule shifted this year, I feel like time jumped ahead of me.The calendar says October, but I don't know how it got there. My favorite month slipped on by; I was hardly able to catch it. I haven't even pulled out the apple cider or scarves yet and I just barely started the fall playlist and candle burning. Yet, September was so beautiful, so enjoyable, so new, so fresh, so...right. I'm not disappointed. It was filled with a new house to organize, a new marriage to learn about, crops being harvested all around, quietness being enjoyed, and life being lived.

October's maybe my second favorite month.

Today was: a cool morning breeze that kept away the boxelder bugs and asian beetles. It was just cool enough for long sleeves, but the warmth of the sun kept the cold from sinking in. It was a dark blue horizon, but a sunshine-y farmyard. It was faded red barns and orange leaves gathering in groups on the roofs. It was looking up to the sky and watching the breeze blow leaves towards my face. It was trying to catch them as I soaked in the magic of the fall. It was watching my husband shingle; he's a hard worker. It was smiling as he joked about how, "you need to stop day-dreaming about fall...it's right now!" I wish I had my camera. I wish even more that everyone was there to enjoy it.

Yes, fall might make me a little crazy. But I love it. The weather. The colors. The feeling.

There's a golden hour in the fall- it's right as the sun starts to set. The sun hits everything just right. The air is still warm enough, yet so comfortable. The bugs are hiding. I run outside to catch it as often as possible. It's just me. It's just what I need. It's just what I love.

Hi blog

I missed September.

It's cuz I was living pretty full time.

I'll post soon. And that's a promise.